I lost my second attempt at pregnancy. Tuesday, December 23, while my husband was at work and I was at home taking some bed rest, I had a really bad lower backache. I also had a terrible pain like I was having a really bad dysmenorrhea. Then I saw something different after I peed. It was no longer the light brown spotting. It was dark red. So I texted my OB, asking her if I was having a miscarriage or if this was a sign of ectopic pregnancy. I didn't want either. I was really in panic! My OB advised me to take a PT asap to check on my hcg level. And I did the next morning. It came out negative.
Everything happened so fast. Although I was saddened by the fact that the pregnancy did not push thru, and that for some reason the positive became negative after almost 2 weeks, I was glad that I did not have to undergo another operation, D&C and the like.
I celebrated Christmas with my family, and of course my husband. We did have a memorable first Christmas, albeit simple, without the fancy stuff and lavish gifts. I did eat ham.. Yeah, it was a big deal since pregnant women are not supposed to eat anything with sodium nitrite, and since I'm not technically pregnant, I was allowed to.
At the end of the day, I realized my husband was right. There were more blessings than bad things that happened to us this year. Sure, there were battles lost and there were wishes unfulfilled, but I guess it's true when people say there's a reason for everything. And when I look back, I'm sure I'm gonna have an even better perspective of things. :)
Everything happened so fast. Although I was saddened by the fact that the pregnancy did not push thru, and that for some reason the positive became negative after almost 2 weeks, I was glad that I did not have to undergo another operation, D&C and the like.
I celebrated Christmas with my family, and of course my husband. We did have a memorable first Christmas, albeit simple, without the fancy stuff and lavish gifts. I did eat ham.. Yeah, it was a big deal since pregnant women are not supposed to eat anything with sodium nitrite, and since I'm not technically pregnant, I was allowed to.
At the end of the day, I realized my husband was right. There were more blessings than bad things that happened to us this year. Sure, there were battles lost and there were wishes unfulfilled, but I guess it's true when people say there's a reason for everything. And when I look back, I'm sure I'm gonna have an even better perspective of things. :)
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