It's Monday once again. Another start of another week. My weekend was a fun-filled weekend indeed. My husband and I had Mexican dinner, and we got to watch Transformers 2, whcih, I must say, was a real hit! I was also able to spend the rest of the weekend with my family and pets, and working on my farm in farmtown - reached level 25 already and bought the largest land. Saturday was also a good day as my acupuncturist, Sis Liu told me that "now is a good time" to get pregnant again, based on the signs she saw when she examined me.
But then the weekend was over. I am now facing another week ahead.
While my laptop was booting earlier, I was thinking of various things. I thank and applaud myself for mustering the courage to go to work. It's now becoming dragging, I feel like I am faced with the dead end. But then, I must admit that there are times when I really want to hold on. There are some people who still make my stay in the office easy and fun. There are opportunities I still want to grab. There are still privileges I still want to enjoy. And of course, we need money, now, more than ever - for the steep amortization of our condo unit, for the monthly rent, for the utilities, for our other bills and of course, for my treatment, and for our project baby preparations. These are the very reasons why I have been hanging on a thread for quite sometime already. I know that I want to do other things. I know that I want a break from the routine. But I still can't afford it. Sad but true.
Here are some of the things I am thinking about right now, with the pros and cons, and the skills and resources required for each.
1. Baking - I am really fascinated with cupcakes and I want to make my own cupcakes soon! I am planning to take short courses for this. I am planning to attend Heny Sison's class for this, but I am still open to other classes that are better than Heny Sison's.
2. Sewing - I have a small sewing machine given by my husband as a Christmas gift almost 5 years ago. I can operate it but can only do straight stitches! I have always wanted to create my own dresses and would love to do my future kids' clothes as well. I just don't know where to enroll for basic courses on sewing or dressmaking. Maybe I'd google it one of these days.
3. Make-up - This one is also a long-time passion. When I was still working as an Usherette at the Cultural Center of the Philippines, most of my salary went to make-up purchases. I have a large make-up bag and I would always volunteer to do the make-up of my fellow usherettes. But then when I left CCP to focus on my junior and senior years in college, this passion died. However, from time to time, I would feel the urge to revive it and do it again. There are classes that I want to attend - one of which is the Basic Make-up of CAS - but this is expensive. Another would be the make-up workshop offered by Suesh, which is a lot cheaper.
4. Blogging - I am doing this already and the blog that my husband and I are maintaining is already at PR1. I love writing and collecting valuable thoughts and information, hence, the blog.
They say you should think if the things you enjoy the most - in all the stages of your life - as this would lead to where you ought to be - career wise - and when you find it, you will be successful.
I remember, when I was in grade school, I was a loner. I didn't have much friends. I didn't socialize a lot. When I get home, I would always draw - clothes, bags and houses. My dad and aunt would bring home reams of bond papers for me to draw on. I loved designing houses, bedrooms, kitchen, etc. I also loved drawing dresses, giwns and bags.
Back in high school, most of the time I was in the music room, with my fellow glee club members. We are either practicing or just hanging around.
In college, and during grad school, I enjoyed going to the library and even if it's not related to what I was researching about, I would always bring home a book to photocopy, usually self-help or psychology books - as my personal reference - in case I would need them. But honestly, I never got to read any of them and just ended up throwing them away.
See. I was never meant to be locked in the office. I am for the arts, for research - at least those are clues. I am the introvert type. Last year, the HR Management team of my company took the MBTI. My MBTI profile was ISTJ. ISTJs are people who do things that have to be done. Maybe that's why I am stuck where I am now - because I need to be here for the reasons I mentioned earlier. But I know that I need to be creative too. I know that somehow, I would need to nurture my creative side too. Maybe I'd be happier, more fulfilled, and maybe I'd become rich!
So as I end this post, I continue to contemplate.. hopefully be the end of this dragging week, I would have clarity.
But then the weekend was over. I am now facing another week ahead.
While my laptop was booting earlier, I was thinking of various things. I thank and applaud myself for mustering the courage to go to work. It's now becoming dragging, I feel like I am faced with the dead end. But then, I must admit that there are times when I really want to hold on. There are some people who still make my stay in the office easy and fun. There are opportunities I still want to grab. There are still privileges I still want to enjoy. And of course, we need money, now, more than ever - for the steep amortization of our condo unit, for the monthly rent, for the utilities, for our other bills and of course, for my treatment, and for our project baby preparations. These are the very reasons why I have been hanging on a thread for quite sometime already. I know that I want to do other things. I know that I want a break from the routine. But I still can't afford it. Sad but true.
Here are some of the things I am thinking about right now, with the pros and cons, and the skills and resources required for each.
1. Baking - I am really fascinated with cupcakes and I want to make my own cupcakes soon! I am planning to take short courses for this. I am planning to attend Heny Sison's class for this, but I am still open to other classes that are better than Heny Sison's.
2. Sewing - I have a small sewing machine given by my husband as a Christmas gift almost 5 years ago. I can operate it but can only do straight stitches! I have always wanted to create my own dresses and would love to do my future kids' clothes as well. I just don't know where to enroll for basic courses on sewing or dressmaking. Maybe I'd google it one of these days.
3. Make-up - This one is also a long-time passion. When I was still working as an Usherette at the Cultural Center of the Philippines, most of my salary went to make-up purchases. I have a large make-up bag and I would always volunteer to do the make-up of my fellow usherettes. But then when I left CCP to focus on my junior and senior years in college, this passion died. However, from time to time, I would feel the urge to revive it and do it again. There are classes that I want to attend - one of which is the Basic Make-up of CAS - but this is expensive. Another would be the make-up workshop offered by Suesh, which is a lot cheaper.
4. Blogging - I am doing this already and the blog that my husband and I are maintaining is already at PR1. I love writing and collecting valuable thoughts and information, hence, the blog.
They say you should think if the things you enjoy the most - in all the stages of your life - as this would lead to where you ought to be - career wise - and when you find it, you will be successful.
I remember, when I was in grade school, I was a loner. I didn't have much friends. I didn't socialize a lot. When I get home, I would always draw - clothes, bags and houses. My dad and aunt would bring home reams of bond papers for me to draw on. I loved designing houses, bedrooms, kitchen, etc. I also loved drawing dresses, giwns and bags.
Back in high school, most of the time I was in the music room, with my fellow glee club members. We are either practicing or just hanging around.
In college, and during grad school, I enjoyed going to the library and even if it's not related to what I was researching about, I would always bring home a book to photocopy, usually self-help or psychology books - as my personal reference - in case I would need them. But honestly, I never got to read any of them and just ended up throwing them away.
See. I was never meant to be locked in the office. I am for the arts, for research - at least those are clues. I am the introvert type. Last year, the HR Management team of my company took the MBTI. My MBTI profile was ISTJ. ISTJs are people who do things that have to be done. Maybe that's why I am stuck where I am now - because I need to be here for the reasons I mentioned earlier. But I know that I need to be creative too. I know that somehow, I would need to nurture my creative side too. Maybe I'd be happier, more fulfilled, and maybe I'd become rich!
So as I end this post, I continue to contemplate.. hopefully be the end of this dragging week, I would have clarity.
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